Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Fall Challenge Week 2 Results

Everyone is doing AWESOME!!! Here are the standings as of yesterday (percentages are based on total for the first two weeks together):

1st - ~Ashley~ -4.8%
2nd - Lovebug6100 -1.4%
3rd - Bobbi -1.2%
4th - Me -.91%
5th - Thin Lizzy -.90%

(Treesa and Fat Girl's Closet chose not to weigh-in this week)


Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Fit and Fabulous Fall Challenge Week 3

Here we are, week three already!!
Be sure to post your weigh-in if you're participating. This week's challenge is to try one new activity or push yourself harder in your current activity. So for example, take that Zumba class you've been meaning to try, or instead of walking for 30 minutes, try 45 minutes. Make sure you write about it!
I did the weekly challenge last week, which was to try a new healthy recipe/food, I just haven't had the chance to post it. Like I said yesterday, I have so much to blog about, just no time to do so.
I HAVE had time to weigh-in, though. Drum roll please...

That's 1.8 pounds down!! Woot woot!!
Not bad considering my weekend (I'll be sure to write it all out tomorrow!).


Monday, September 24, 2012

Quick Check-in

Hello! It's been a crazy busy last couple of days. Tomorrow is weigh-in day for the fitness challenge, so don't forget to post a pic if you're participating. I have so much to talk about, just no time to do so because I need to get to bed. I actually have to go in to work tomorrow for a professional development training. It's going to last all day, so I'll try to blog after school. I'm anxious to see how it goes - my hubby will be with the baby all day! It'll be the first time he's watched him for more than an hour or two. Anyways happy Monday! Enjoy your week and I'll see ya tomorrow!

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Must. Resist. Temptation.

I'm really struggling! I had to force myself to get on the treadmill this afternoon. Not because I needed to workout, because I've done so well this week I could probably have taken today as a rest day and it wouldn't have mattered. I forced myself because I was giving in to the temptation to binge eat. I looked through my cupboards and started eating pretty much everything I could get my hands on. That's not good. I get like this sometimes. It's like I subconsciously sabotage myself when I'm doing really well with weight loss. One time I gained, like, 15 pounds in a month from going crazy and binge eating. I did the right thing, though, and tracked all the points I ate (which was 23 in a matter of an hour and only leaves me with 8 left for dinner) and got on the treadmill for 50 minutes. Now I'm sitting here, typing on my computer, doing everything I can to keep myself out of my kitchen.
Anyways, I decided to spend the day watching as many episodes of The Office as I can. Tonight is the premiere episode of the final season. It is truly a sad day for me. I joke and over exaggerate, but I'm actually really upset deep down. I really love that show and it's going to be hard for me that they are never going to make another season after this. I'm going to write in to NBC and tell them that they should have Steve Carell's character come back for the finale and have my baby star as his son, since they have the same name. Wouldn't that be cute? HA! I highly doubt it'd happen, but a girl can dream (yes, that's how lame I am - of all things I could dream about like money, fortune, fame, eternal youth, being thin, etc. etc. etc., I dream about being on an episode of The Office). Check out these baby blues: he'd be great for the part!
Well, at least I did good on the treadmill this afternoon. Four miles in fifty minutes. That's a 12:37 pace. Still sort of slow, but getting there.

I was messing around with Instagram today and took a nifty pic of my shoes. They are really comfortable for running. Just expressing my artsy side. ;)
I've been scoping the internet for running gear. I stumbled upon two Nike devices that might be a beneficial buy. One is the Nike+ FuelBand and the other is the Nike+ Sportsband. I've been sort of comparing them and contemplating which one I'd like to get. I'm really leaning toward the Sportsband. First of all, the FuelBand is $149 (the Sportsband is only $59) and it doesn't track your heartrate (the Sportsband does). The only cool thing is that the FuelBand is made more for all day purpose to track your overall activity. It uses a points system that tells you if you've been more/less/equally active than the day before, and that way you're able to set goals and focus on all activity rather than just running. I don't know. I wish I had unlimited resources so I could just buy both, but I just can't see spending over $200, that just wouldn't be realistic. GRRR! Decisions, decisions.
I leave you with this cute little picture I found on Google+. First of all, it helped me rethink the binging I was doing earlier. Second of all, it's a good inspiration to us all. And finally, it's probably what my kid's going to act like when he gets a little older (we are a pretty silly family).

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

~CORRECTION~ Week One Results are IN!

After reading Bobbi's blog a little better, I realized I didn't scroll down far enough to see her actual weigh-in. I have to make a correction in the standings. Sorry for the mistake!!

The first week's results are in and here are the results:

1st - ~Ashley~ -3.6%
2nd - Bobbi -1.2%
3rd - Lovebug6100 -1.1%
4th - Treesa -.85%
5th - Thin Lizzy -.5%
6th - Me +/-0% :(

(Fat Girl's Closet has chosen not to weigh in each week. It'll be cool to see how much she loses in the end - she's probably whipping all of our butts!!)

Great job everyone!!


Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Week Two of the Fit and Fabulous Fall Challenge!

Wow, it's been a week already! Today marks the first day of the second week of the Fit and Fabulous Fall Challenge!
I don't know about anyone else, but my weigh-in today was really disappointing. Actually, let me rephrase that - I hope everyone else had a better weigh-in than I did today!
That means 0 pounds lost. At least it's not a gain I guess. According to my last weigh-in, though, my body fat percentage did go down. That's a good thing.
Anyways, this week's mini challenge is to try a new healthy food or recipe. I hope everyone gives it a shot, it'll be fun to try something different. I haven't decided what I'm going to make yet, but I'm going to try to make it fun and interesting.
Speaking of the mini challenges, it was nice to see so many people write words of encouragement on everyone's blogs! I still haven't gotten around to commenting on the first official weigh-ins, but I'll do it. I was super busy this week and even though I had time to write some quick posts of my own and read most of those I follow, I didn't get to commenting on too many. I usually comment in bed at night right before I go to sleep, but I've been so tired lately I just didn't take the time. It takes forever to post comments because I do it on my iPhone, and I have a really hard time with those stupid things where you have to type in numbers and letters to prove you're not a robot. I usually have to go through at least two of them before I get them right. A part of the problem is that iPhones have autocorrect, so I'll type in what I see and then right when I hit the button it corrects it to some other word. It's so agitating.
I'm pretty bummed because it's raining today. I was planning on a nice long bike ride to cross train my running this morning, but that's out of the question now. So I ran on the treadmill instead. Not bad, I did that same app again where you do a 5 minute warm-up, cool down and intervals of 4 minutes run/1 minute walk. I did a shorter one and only did 50 minutes but it took me to 4 miles.

Well I can't wait to see everyone's weigh-ins today! I hope everyone is doing well on their progress!! Good luck! :) Have a great week!

Monday, September 17, 2012


I couldn't come up with a title to this post because there could be so many. For example, "Weigh-in Day Tomorrow" or "I Ran 5 1/2 Miles!" or "I Can't Freaking Believe it's Mid-September Already" or "This Weekend Was Really Bad on My Diet and Next Isn't Going to Be Any Better" or "My Son is Driving Me Insane!".
I guess I'll start with the first and go from there.
"Weigh-in Day Tomorrow"
Yes, tomorrow is the first weekly weigh-in for the fall challenge. I'm anxious to see how everyone is doing! I'm also nervous about my own weigh-in (see the chapter of "This Weekend Was Really Bad..." below). I stepped on the scale today and it said 201. Really? Ok, my weekend may have been bad for the food part, but I'm still kicking butt on activity! I worked out six out of the eight days, with four of them being in a row. You seriously mean to tell me that two days of eating a little (ok a lot) over my points made me gain four pounds? GRRR!
"I Ran 5 1/2 Miles!"
Ok, not straight, and more of a jog, but I did pretty good. I used an app that trains for a half marathon, skipped to almost the end, and did intervals of 4 minutes run/jog, 1 minute walk with a five minute warm up and cool down for 1 hr. 10 min. I was close to 5.5 miles so I kept walking the extra two minutes to get there. I hope my treadmill is accurate because that ROCKS! I was definitely tired by the end, so I know I couldn't actually complete the half marathon yet (good thing I still have 11 months until my first) but I'm getting closer and closer!

"I Can't Freaking Believe it's Mid-September Already"
Speaking of having 11 months until my first half marathon - I can't believe it's already mid-September. In just over a week my son will be 4 months old. This summer FLEW by! And in two months I'm going to have to go back to work! BIG FROWNY FACE!! :( I've been trying to avoid anything resembling a calendar so I don't have to be reminded of this, but the campground season is winding down and is almost over now, so it's hard to forget what day it is now.
"This Weekend Was Really Bad on My Diet and Next Isn't Going to Be Any Better"
Speaking of the campground (see how cleverly these 'chapters' align?), I had a tough weekend as far as eating. I ended up having a few too many beers Saturday night, plus some chips and other various snacks, around the campfire. I ended up not even bothering trying to log my points. Then on Sunday we went to the rib burnoff in our area and then Dairy Queen so I didn't log that day either. According to Weight Watchers online, guess how many points a full rack of beef ribs from a restaurant are. No seriously, guess! 40? No. 80? No. 96. 96 freaking points. Luckily a full rack of pork ribs is 46 points, which is still a lot but not quite as bad. I had a half a rack of pork ribs, so that's at least 23 points. Then the ice cream. I did choose a small strawberry sundae, but still. And the beer? I have no idea how much I drank. Oh well. Next weekend isn't going to be any better because it's the last party weekend for the campground. We are having our yearly 'Halloween' party. The kids all dress up and trick-or-treat around the campers, there's a haunted house set up for entertainment and then we have a costume party/dance afterward. I LOVE the dances - I really get down with my bad self! We actually have one every holiday weekend: Memorial Day, Fourth of July, Labor Day and then 'Halloween'. This has been me at the dances one too many times:
I'm not even kidding.

And finally:
"My Son is Driving Me Insane!"
He's been super fussy lately. It's different than before, though, because this fussy is due to him being tired. I swear my day consists of feeding him, putting him down for a nap, and repeat. All day long. I'm not saying I don't enjoy it because it does give me time on my own, but I like playing and spending time with him, too. Once again, how can I be mad at a face like this?

Gotta love him!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

And then there were 7...

We do have one addition to our fall challenge! Everyone welcome ~Ashley~ (click on her name to go to her weigh-in)! I have to tell you all, I stumbled across her blog sort of randomly as I was bloghopping one day (that's what I call it when I go from one blog to the next via the list of blogs that each person follows), and she is HILARIOUS. It's not what she's talking about so much, it's about how she writes it. I was literally laughing out loud (duh, lol) when I first came across her posts. Anyways, give it up for Ashley (applaud now)!
So I've been doing ok with my eating. As you all know I started Weight Watchers (actually, started taking advantage of the monthly subscription I'm already paying for), and I've been doing decent with the points. The thing I don't like about WW is that it's kind of really hard to figure out the points when things aren't prepackaged or from a restaurant already listed. For example, my hubby made fried perch the other night. Now, 'cooked perch' is worth like 5 points per fillet, but 'fried fish' is worth 14 points per fillet. Well, what the heck size is the fillet? Does frying the perch really make it that much worse? Seriously? Is there a difference in the batter when it's fried? For example, we just use a little egg and bread crumbs, so is that different than other batters that use flour? Then we went to dinner at an Italian restaurant. I had one (yes, only one even though I could have eaten a thousand because they were so freaking delicious) of the tiny rolls they gave us and then my dinner was pasta with mussels and marinara sauce. There wasn't a whole lot of sauce on it, so would I consider it a cup? Two cups? And I had no clue the measurement for the mussels. It goes by ounces or cups. What am I supposed to do, take measuring utensils with me to dinner every time we go out? I don't know, I just sort of wing it. These situations are where WW is sort of unrealistic in terms of following in a normal life. It doesn't help, either, that now that school has started, we'll be eating out a lot because Twig plays volleyball (and then basketball) and all the games are at least a half an hour away. At least I've taken to bringing a piece of fruit for a snack during the game though, instead of buying pizza or soft pretzels or nachos at the concession stands. I guess every little bit helps.
Anyways, I've still been doing well with my activity. As a matter of fact, I'm up to 34 activity points so far this week! That's a lot actually! I only get 31 points a day to eat, so I've built up more than an entire day's worth of points extra (it's a lucky thing, too, because we are going to the annual rib burn-off in our area today, so I'm going to need them!). Thursday I went on a short jog. I had to take the stroller and it really IS so much harder to run with. I got tired and really didn't feel like going further. Then Friday I totally kicked butt!! I went 4.26 miles at a pace of just over 12 minutes/mile. I jogged the first 3.4 miles straight! Then I hit that darn uphill and had to walk quite a bit of it. But, once I got to the top I ran the rest of the way home. I even hit a new personal best for a mile and the 5k! Wooohoooo!!
Then yesterday morning my dad and I went on our regular weekly bike ride. We had to cut it short to only an hour because of time restrictions, but we went faster than normal. My dad was sucking wind quite a bit! To me, though, it was an easy ride. We used to live by a pretty steep hill when I was younger, like 12, and he used to jog up and down it for exercise. I, being chubby and out of shape until I decided to change that in my later teens, tried to run it with him once and about died. He sort of made me feel bad about myself because I wasn't able to keep up with him. I still remember being so disappointed in myself that I had to stop and walk. So, the ride yesterday morning was pretty much redemption!
Well last night was interesting, but I'll have to take the time to write about it tomorrow. Let's just say I don't even want to know how many points I used and I'm NOT going to try to track it. Right now, I have to feed my little man and put him down for a nap. Have a great rest of the weekend everyone!
I'll leave you with this interesting little tidbit I found:

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

There Are Six...

There are six of us participating in the fall challenge (click on those words to read the post)! I'm so excited! There are more than I thought and less than I thought at the same time. When I first decided to try hosting a challenge I thought there'd only be me and maybe two other ladies. Then when I posted the initial information for the challenge, about 9 ladies showed interest. So that's why there are more AND less than I thought. If the other ladies who originally showed interest end up wanting to still participate, I'm going to allow a few extra days to post the intial weigh-in for them. I figure it's only going to give them a disadvantage anyways because they'll have less time. Besides, ultimately, this really is just for fun.

So here's the line up so far in no particular order (click on their names to be directed to their inital weigh-in post):
Thin Lizzy
Fat Girl's Closet
Lovebug6100 (Megan)
and of course ME! :)

Good luck to all!!!

So this morning I went on a jog. Drum roll please...... it's not longer a WALK/JOG! Woot woot!! I did a total of 3.15 miles in 38 minutes (according to Daily Mile it was about a 12 minute pace). I did not stop at all except for once and that was only because I had to tie my shoe! I was so mad at myself, though, because I forgot to change the settings on my running app back to 'outside' rather than 'treadmill'. By the time I was done it said I was up to 9 miles. YEAH RIGHT. I would have to keep, like, a 4 minute/mile pace to go that far in 38 minutes. It was funny because I run on a bike trail and the miles are clearly marked with a post. I start at the 24 mile marker and I've been down the trail enough to know pretty much where the 23 1/2 mile mark would be and then of course I know exactly where the 23 mile mark is. I didn't even get a half a mile before my app cut into the music to announce my first mile. I about tripped over my own feet. It was then that I realized my mistake, but I didn't want to start over. I probably would have if I'd had more time, but my hubby was going fishing and needed me to get home in order to watch the baby. Then, of course, I couldn't fix it to show the exact mileage, so I went as low as it would let me and put it at 4.59. Stupid app, now not only was my treadmill run inaccurate, but now this one is, too. Oh well, I'll just have to get over my slight case of OCD and let it go. Here's the pic anyways. You can see where I stopped to tie my shoe lol:

I finally found some pics to put in my 'Progress Pics' tab. I don't have too many full body pics because I HATE how I look, but they're close enough. I can already see a difference in my face. I took this pic yesterday to post on Facebook to show off my new do. I LOVE my hairdresser. I literally just walk in and tell her to do what she does best and BAM! she comes up with an awesome look. I don't even pick out the colors. She knows how I like my bangs and that's all I require!
Anyways, I better show my son a little attention, he's been whining the entire time I've been trying to blog. Have a lovely week! Happy hump day ;)


Tuesday, September 11, 2012

My Own Weigh-In

So I'm hosting the Fit and Fabulous Fall Challenge, but I'm still going to participate even though I won't win (it wouldn't be fair because I already know I'd win (just kidding)). I'm pretty competitive, so participating helps push me and keep me on track. Plus, I want to meet new people and be involved in the blogging community. Now, typically I'd eat a bunch of Big Macs or something to make my first weigh-in higher so it's easier to lose the first couple pounds, but seeing as how I have 70 pounds to lose until I'm at goal, I'd really rather not add anything to it. So, here's my official weigh-in.
Down 2.8 pounds from last week!
I'm so excited to be back in Onederland. It took over a month to get there. I'm definitely not losing as fast as I'd like or hope. Let's face it, I have no patience. My girl Treesa at Always Twenty Pounds to Go commented on my post about struggling that she hears people say te same thing they say to me - it took nine months to put it on, it'll take a while to work it off. I'm just about as sick of hearing that as she is! I know it's supposed to be comforting, but let's be honest, I want the weight off not comforted.

Also, being in the fitness challenge has inspired me to start logging my food with Weight Watchers. I did it today and did really well. I ate within my points even though we ate out for dinner. Not too shabby, I just hope I can keep it up.

Anyways today was a rest day, so I haven't much else to talk about. I'll leave you all with a little inspiration!

Fit and Fabulous Fall Challenge - Let the Games Begin!

*Cue the circus announcer voice*

Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls - welcome to ThunderThighs' Fit and Fabulous Fall Challenge! Eight weeks of blood, sweat and tears! Let the games begin!!


Well everyone, it's here. First, let me explain a few of the official rules and information:

1. Today you MUST post your beginning weight on your blog. I will allow initial weigh-ins for about 24 hours, which takes us to 10:00 EST Wednesday morning. You also have to comment on this post with your URL so I know where to go to find your initial weigh-in. Tomorrow I will post a list of all the participants. In your initial weigh-in post, feel free to copy and paste the picture for the challenge and be sure to link it back to this post. You can do that by highlighting any word or even the picture itself (for example I usually write "click --->HERE<---" and I link the word 'HERE') and clicking the icon "Link" in the toolbar of Blogger. Then simply copy and paste this post's URL into the text box and you're gold. That way anyone who reads your blog can find this post and read what the challenge is all about (your followers may want to participate too, the more the merrier!).

2. The weekly weigh-ins are optional. I've heard a few people request this so they don't have to go crazy worrying about their weight every week. If you do want to weigh-in weekly, though, I will post a leader board every Wednesday to see who is in the lead with percentage lost. Personally, this will be the exciting part because it keeps me competitive! If you do want to weigh-in weekly, simply post a pic of your weight each Tuesday.

3. This challenge will also include mini weekly challenges. This is another optional part of the challenge, but I think it'll make it a little more fun and interesting than just weighing ourselves once a week. If you complete all of the weekly challenges, your name will be put into a drawing for a prize for participation. Make sure you write about how you completed it in a post on your blog at some point throughout that particular week so I know if you've participated. I will post a list of those who've completed the mini challenge in the same post as the leader board each Wednesday so you will be able to see if I read your post, and that way if I miss anyone, you can let me know. I hope that makes sense! Anyways, here are the mini challenges for each week:
  • Week one - Today, in addition to weighing in, visit all challenge participants' blogs and share some encouragement through commenting on their post. Even a simple 'good luck' counts. One of the whole purposes of this challenge is to create a community of people who are in this weight loss journey together (ok, and the competition is helpful too, so you'll be able to see what you're up against *wink wink*).
  • Week two - Try one new healthy food or recipe. Have fun taking a pic of your food/recipe or posting the recipe on your blog.
  • Week three - Try one new activity or push yourself harder in your current activity. So for example, take that Zumba class you've been meaning to try, or instead of walking for 30 minutes, try 45 minutes. Make sure you write about it!
  • Week four - Half way! Blog about your progress so far and set three goals you'd like to achieve for the last 4 weeks of the challenge. 
  • Week five - Write a post about at least one thing you appreciate in your life. Feel free to share pics!
  • Week six - Be kind to yourself: make a list of ten things you love about yourself. Sometimes this can be the hardest thing to do!
  • Week seven - Try another new activity or push yourself even harder in your current activity!
  • Week eight - Write a post that reflects on this challenge. Did you accomplish your goals? Did you meet new bloggers? Did you feel encouraged by each other? Was the challenge worth your time?
These mini challenges are not only to help us with weight loss, but are for the health of our body and soul as well. I tried to make sure they weren't too complicated.

4. The eight weeks will be up on Tuesday, November 6th. Your final weigh-in will be due at that point. On that Wednesday, I'll post the final results and prizes will be awarded to the top three 'losers'. I haven't quite figured out what the prizes will be yet. They aren't going to be anything major, but I'll make sure they have to do with health and fitness (I'm thinking of a cookbook, one of those water bottles that filter the water, etc. I'll figure it out before the end, I promise!).

Well, I think that's everything! If you have any questions or need anything explained further, feel free to ask. Make sure you comment on this blog so I know your participating (write your URL in your comment too). My personal goal in all this is to (like I mentioned earlier) create a community of weightloss bloggers, and add in a little competition as well. I hope this challenge will be fun and worth your time! I highly encourage everyone to take part in the mini challenges. Enjoy yourself and good luck everyone!!


Monday, September 10, 2012


I'm going to start off with the positives in my life right now - the amount of activity I've been doing. First, Friday morning I went on a nice, LONG, slow, relaxing bike ride with a friend of mine. We went almost 28 miles, at a pretty easy pace of 10 mph on average.
Then on Saturday it was raining, so I ran on the treadmill. A while back I bought an app for my phone that trains for a half marathon, which I'll start to use next spring to prepare for my first half in August, but I decided to pick a day in the app to try on the treadmill. I skipped all the way to week 9 day one, which consisted of a five minute warm-up, five minute cool down, and 8 repeats of four minutes running/one minute walking. I thought it might be easy enough to do, yet hard enough to push me. HA! It was HARD!!! I really struggled and had to slow down my pace during the running and walking intervals about half way through. It did help, though, that at one point I had to run to the bathroom because I about peed myself! I've heard that running long distances makes you have to pee, but I didn't realize the urgency! Although, I did just have a baby, and that messes with your bodily functions, but whatever... this is probably too much information for you anyways. I was so ticked because my Nike app allows for use on a treadmill, but it was WAY inaccurate as far as the miles and I can't figure out how to adjust it. There's a place where you can input how far you actually went, but it wouldn't let me change the mileage to more than one mile, and according to my treadmill I went 3.786 miles. According to Daily Mile, my pace was 13'13" which is GREAT!! I would have made it an even 4 miles, but my hubby was watching the baby and had to leave, so I had to quit at 50 minutes. Plus, I was pretty tired out and my shins were starting to tire, so I'm glad I didn't have the time to push myself. That's the good thing about running on a treadmill for me - I really push myself. When I'm on the treadmill, I'm forced to keep a steady pace at whatever mph I set it at and keep at it for a certain amount of time. When I'm not on the treadmill, though, it's really easy to slow down and judge my effort by distance rather than time (so for example, I'll say I need to keep jogging until I get to the next tree rather than jogging for five minutes at a time).
This is the pic from my app. HA, it says I kept a 111'39" pace!! I'm pretty sure a snail keeps a faster pace than that!
This morning my dad and I went on a ride to make up for the ride we missed on Saturday because of the rain. We went farther than usual, but slower as well. It still felt good.
Anyways, September 11th. Tomorrow. A day to remember those who've fought for this country. A day to remember those who lost their lives in the attack on our country. A day to remember a good friend because it's her birthday. And now, a day to start a new fitness challenge! (Though that's not even half as important as the other reasons as to why September 11th is so significant)

I will make sure I post all of the official rules and information tomorrow morning. If you want to participate, you must post your own official weigh-in on your blog. Also, you'll have to comment on my post tomorrow so I know to check your blog for your first weigh-in. Otherwise I won't know if you're participating or not. :) I'm SO excited to start! I've made the decision to finally start taking advantage of my Weight Watchers subscription for the challenge.
That leads me into my whining and complaining part of my post. So, if you don't want to hear that, stop reading now and have a wonderful week! Otherwise, here it is. I'm struggling. Really struggling. I weighed myself the other day and I finally saw a 1 in the front. 199.8. But, then I weighed myself this morning and I was back into the 200s. Also, the weather is cooling down, so I went into my closet yesterday to find some pants. NONE of my pants fit. NONE. I have no jeans to wear. The only things that fit are my maternity clothes. The size 14 jeans that always looked so huge to me are now so small I can't get them up over my thighs (stupid thunder thighs). My first thought was, "Great, now I'm going to have to change my profile on my blog because I'm not going from a size 14 down to an 8, I'm going from probably an 18 to an 8." When I take a step back and realize how big I am and how far I have to go to get to where I want to be, I'm so overwhelmed. It's such a daunting task. I mean, with all the activity I'm doing, you'd think the pounds would just melt off. But they aren't. And I have no clothes to fit me. Also, I've been so lazy with my looks lately. I haven't put on any make-up in months. I rarely do my hair anymore - just throw it up still wet into a ponytail and call it a day. I just keep thinking, "What's the point in trying to look nice when I'm so big?" What's the point in doing my hair when I still have such a fat ass? What's the point in wearing anything other than a baggy tshirt when my stomach is so nasty? Why bother putting on make-up when it's just going to accentuate my chubby cheeks? I know I shouldn't have this attitude, but I do and I just can't help it. For a while I won't feel like I'm any different than I was a year ago, but then I look in the mirror or catch my reflection in a window and I can hardly believe I'm looking at my own body. I've been putting off taking progress pictures for this blog because I can't stand looking at myself. I guess I didn't think losing the weight would be quite this hard. Usually it gets hard when you get closer to goal, but I'm already struggling and I have 70 pounds to go! 70 POUNDS!! That's a small child! I need to take the equivalent of a small child off of my legs, stomach and arms. Stepping back and looking at the situation I begin to think I'll NEVER be able to get there! How in the world am I ever going to be able to lose 70 pounds??? It seems so impossible!
I don't know. I mean, I have faith in myself and in God that He'll help me get there. It just seems so far away and out of reach right now. I did find this pic and felt a little inspiration:
Another part of my problem is that I'm literally busting my nonexsistent balls off and my hubby is losing at least a pound a day doing next to nothing. It really bothers me that I'm struggling so much and he's not. I'm jealous, I'll admit. Plus it bothers me that he's only, like, 30 pounds heavier than me. Guys are SUPPOSED to weigh more than girls (I mean, let's be honest, who really likes the look of a scrawny guy?), but not by only 30 pounds!
Well, enough whining for today. Be sure to stop by tomorrow to get involved in the fitness challenge!! And good luck to everyone!!!! Have a fabulous week! :)
Oh, and here's a pic of my little man. I just couldn't end this without one! We're ready for football season!