If this heat keeps up...

... I'm not going to have to worry about losing weight - I'm going to die of heat exhaustion first!! This is RIDICULOUS! Holy hell on earth batman!

So we had a softball game tonight. In 100 degree heat. I had a really bad game, my abilities are really going downhill, not that they can go too much further as it is! I actually made contact with the ball while batting, which is more than I can say about the last couple of games. And, I barely made a catch out in the field, though I DID catch it! It hit my glove and bounced into my chest, which I then caught it with my hand. But, hey, it counted as a catch! Totally made up for the one that flew just over my mitt and I missed. Grrr...

Anyways, I weighed in at 163.2 this morning, which is about two pounds down from the last weigh-in. Unfortunately it's still not the 155 I was a couple months ago, but I'll get there again.

Well, just checking in! If I don't make it back before then, have a great weekend everyone!!

Just a Bunch of Blah Blah Blah

Ok, I know I shouldn't be rushing my summer vaca, but I'm so pumped to get back to school. I have a new co-teacher, and everyone is telling me she's awesome. But, the best part, is she's prego and due in August, which means the first six weeks of school I'll be on my own. I know that usually that would make people nervous, but I'm really excited to try out things that I want, and set up the classroom and routine how I want, and not worry about what another teacher's opinion is. Yes, deep down I'm selfish and not so much of a team player, I can admit that.

This year I've decided to provide my students with their supplies for a fee of $1. Therefore, I went to Walmart the other day and bought 175 notebooks, folders, composition notebooks and manila folders. I figured it out, and I'll actually make a profit because the notebooks were 20 cents, folders 15, comp. notebooks 40 and manila folders 15. That's an extra ten cents for me, which I'll of course use to provide freaking pencils and pens that they never seem to have. Parents, if nothing else, force your kids to have some sort of writing utensil for school please! Thanks :)

Anyways, I'm going to get online today and look up some ideas for icebreakers and opening activities. I know the first day we'll be reading the school rules, but that leaves about fifteen minutes for additional things, one of which will be organizing the seating chart. So, I need something for them to do. I'm tossing around the idea of having them take a quiz about me and then for homework, come up with a quiz about themselves that I have to take. I don't know.

The point is, I'm so excited about this school year! I need to pace myself, though, or else the rest of the summer is going to pass at the blink of an eye!!

So, weight loss. Oh, dear weight loss, how I miss thee. Yesterday I did pretty well eating-wise. I need to get some exercising in, which luckily I'll be teaching at the Y tonight. Speaking of which, did I tell you why I'm teaching during the week as well as my regular Saturday morning? Oh, wait, I know I didn't because I haven't blogged in forever! Ok, so this chicka Nikki normally teaches, but she's on maternity leave. This CRAZY lady kept teaching until like three weeks before her due date! WHOA!!

Anyways, well I have chores to do. Happy Tuesday to all!!

Confessions

#1 I pay $10 a month for a Netflix subscription that I barely use.

#2 I HATE when young people today use 'texting' lingo that's hardly decipherable. I mean, I get the lol and btw, I use those, but when they edit out all the vowels of words and expect you to understand what it all means, that's a little ridiculous.

#3 I'm addicted to crossword puzzles and a matching game that came preloaded on my computer. Yes, a matching game. You know, the kind where you play in kindergarten and flip over cards to find the matches. I guess I'm just trying to keep my mind active to fend off Alzheimer's.

#4 I've gained back all the weight I lost since April. Yep, I'm back to 166. Actually, 165.6, but there's no need to be that particular. The point is, it's back.

You know, a friend of mine once said, "It's so much harder to lose weight when you're older because by that time, your body and your fat are too good of friends to separate." I'm thinking this is very much the case with me, but I'm only 26, so my body and my fat must have fallen in love at first sight.

It's not that I'm not active. Actually, I've been very active this summer - a couple bike rides (indoors and out), teaching twice a week at the Y, softball, swimming, walking throughout the campground. But my diet lately has consisted of hotdogs, hamburgers, chips and alcohol. The only thing keeping me from blowing up into morbidly obesity IS how active I am, actually.

Eh, it's a little difficult to see this written down. But I certainly can't hide from the truth. I looked at myself in the mirror yesterday and barely recognized myself. How did I let my body get so big again?! Oh wait, I already know the answer to that. I remember back when I had lost a ton of weight and was down to a size 6, and my sister told me that I looked good and that when I was in high school I was pretty fat. Well, I weigh more now than I did in high school. Wonder what she thinks of me now.

Anyways, there's my update. My goal is to lose 5 pounds before school starts back up. I just want to be 160. Then, I'll go from there.

I'm still alive, I promise

Hey everyone!! I've been seriously neglecting my blog and all of the blogs I love to read. It's summer. That's all I can say. I have no other excuses. I haven't been doing well at all with my eating, I've been slowly gaining weight, and I haven't been following the workout routine I've wanted to. I guess when I lack a structured daily routine I fall apart. Plus, I've been drinking enough to offset any exercise or healthy eating I DO do! Oh well. Just think of it like this - most people worry about going on vacation for a week and gaining weight and how much it's going to throw off their progress, and for me, that vacation is over 2 MONTHS LONG! My goal is to get into a strong routine in August. At least then I start to go to inservice trainings and stuff, so it's kind of like getting back to work. Plus, the weather here went from cold and rainy to smoldering hot with very few days of nice springy weather in between. So I haven't really gotten outside for a run or bike ride at all. I have been playing softball and teaching my regular aerobics classes on Saturdays. I did picked up an additional aerobics class once a week because the original instructor is on maternity leave, which is nice because it forces me to workout at least twice a week.

Speaking of maternity leave, nothing has happened in that area for me yet. My hubby has continued to use other methods of birth control because he claims he's not 'ready' to begin trying. I asked him when he thinks he'll be ready, and he came up with the same bullshit excuse he did back before we got engaged about getting married - he's not sure when he'll be ready, maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, maybe next year. Sometimes I hate men.

So I guess you can't always get what you want, right? Anyways, I'll be back around soon enough. Hang in there! I hope everyone is doing well!!!!

Somewhat exciting news...

We interupt the normally broadcasted schedule to inform you of some somewhat exciting news.

Ok, I know I haven't been keeping up with my blog recently, and I haven't really had time to read my faves either, but it's because I've been BUSY BUSY BUSY!! Doing what, you might ask? Getting ready. Ready for what? Well, my hubby and I have decided to go off birth control and take our chances at getting preggo!

I'm not pregnant yet. And we aren't exactly officially TRYING right yet either. But the possibility of me having a small child growing within by the end of the summer is very high!! I had time to blog about this the other day, but I figured I should talk to my mom about it first. I didn't want her finding out in writing rather than directly from me!

So anyways, I've been getting my house ready. I went through my closet and dresser and got rid of TONS of clothes. I've also been cleaning some areas that have been neglected for quite a while. I had goals in mind to get this stuff done the first week of summer vacation anyways, but now that we've made this decision I figure it's a little more pertinent to do. I know I have at least a whole year before a little one will be sharing our home, but I want to get a head start. Lord only knows with as much of a procrastinator I am, I'll be eight months preggo and just starting on the nursery! Besides, it makes me feel so accomplished to have a clean house with no laundry to be done and a nice, healthy dinner in the oven.

Now, if you would have known me way back in the day, you would be extremely surprised to read these words coming from me. I've never really been a girly girl. I'm a slob. I hate cleaning, cooking, etc... you know - the 'woman's jobs' as my hubby refers to them. But, I don't know, all of a sudden I'm getting these feelings. Call it hormones or whatever, but it's there.

I've NEVER wanted a kid. I NEVER thought I'd have any motherly instincts. I hated babies. I dreaded the idea of being preggo, giving birth, staying up all night with a crying baby, giving up my FREEDOM. But lately these things don't bother me so much. Crazy, huh? I can't believe I feel so different. As a matter of fact, I'm actually excited about those things.

I don't know, like I said, nothing is for certain just yet because I'm not preggo. But, I have a feeling a whole new chapter of my life is opening up really soon!

As for weight loss, I forgot to weigh in this morning. I gained a little last week, and I don't even know what to expect this week. What I can say, though, is that I've actually felt normal with my eating. I did eat a bit much at dinner last night (I LOVE tuna noodle casserole), and we haven't exactly been eating the BEST of foods (McD's and Pizza Hut have been regulars on our menu), but I haven't felt the need to eat between meals at all, let alone binge like a mad woman. Twig and I are going to start a summer workout program next week, where we have a list of things we plan to do throughout the week, and we just check them off as we go. For example, there are four sessions of 30-45 minutes of cardio on there. Each day we do one session, we'll cross it off. She's doing it to keep in shape/condition for volleyball season. I'm, of course, doing it to lose weight.

And, I don't know if it is because of the decision to have a baby, but ever since I've been happy. Truly happy. I feel more love for my hubby (which I didn't think was even possible), I look at things differently, I'm happy about my future, I even do the dishes with a SMILE on my face!

What a difference life can be when you finally decide to grow up!

A Quickie

I know, you got all excited when you saw the title of this post. But, sorry, it's just to describe the length of this post. ;)

I might actually be ahead of the game today. I did eat a little junk at school, but I had Subway for dinner and played hard at our softball game tonight. I plan to have a much better weekend too. The people I usually drink with aren't going to be around the campground. I just want to relax, do a little garage-saling (what my family calls going around to all the garage sales in the area), and get in some bike riding. I'm excited to spend some time with my youngest stepdaughter. I really love it when she's around!

Anyways, tomorrow is the last day of school for the students. We moved our room around today and it got me really excited about next year. Not too excited, though, I'm still really looking forward to the summer!

I'm anxious to see what I weigh in at tomorrow. I'm certainly not expecting much, I'm just hoping to not see too much of a gain. I can't wait to get on some sort of workout routine for the summer. I've been slacking off on everything, especially my workouts, and I don't know why because I really enjoy it. I'm proud of myself when I can do things that I couldn't do if I weren't in shape. Plus I'm sure I'm nowhere near a six minute mile!! Remember that goal? How easily life gets in the way of things we want sometimes! I'll get there eventually!

Well I just wanted to check in. TGIF baby!


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What My Husband Said

I had my post ready in my mind today and I almost forgot it. Everyone knows Blogger is going through a rough patch (see, I told you we all go through it sometimes!), and I even mentioned in my last post that I'm having problems commenting. Then, I logged on just now and about had a freaking heart attack! Under the spot where I can read all the blogs I follow, it said, "You are not currently following any blogs." WHAT?? I did some frantic clicking around on a bunch of buttons and in a panic I restarted my internet and everything was back to normal. Phew, that was a close one! My laptop was about to be thrown out the window!

This leads me right into my post, actually, because rather than writing a lot about weight loss and fitness, I'm going to vent instead today because I'm frustrated (yeah, I'm already frustrated and Blogger decided to make things worse for a moment there). See, I'm having an issue with something my hubby said to me a while back. Have you ever had someone say something and it didn't really get to you at first, but the longer you thought about it, the more it started to get under your skin? Or how about something someone said just floating around, constantly popping up in your head at the worst possible moments? Yeah, that's happening to me, and it's something my hubby, my normally sweet, amazing, wonderful hubby, said.

A while back, when I was trying to close down the campground store, I dropped one of our bowls. I have a nice set of red dishes that I got at my bridal shower that we use when we're having a crowd over because they all match. But, I broke one of the bowls. And it was because I had so much stuff to carry into the house - my laptop, the cash register drawer, the bowl, and some other stuff, that I was having a hard time balancing it all in my arms. On the way out of the store, I locked and shut the door, only to realize that I locked the plug at the end of the cord to my laptop in the door. Needless to say I was trapped, so I called my hubby to help. He kind of gave me a hard time because he was right in the middle of something, but he had no choice because I didn't have the key to unlock the door, so he had to come down to open it. After opening the door, instead of offering to take something out of my hands, he just walked away, and as I bent over to pick up the plug, I dropped the bowl.

I was already irritated with the whole situation, and this just sent me over the edge. I was like, "You come down every night and help everyone else close the store, and you carry the register drawer into the house for them and yada yada yada," and you know what his comment back was? Apparently he was inside folding laundry, so he said, "Yeah? Well I was just inside doing YOUR job, so I don't want to hear it." *Cue the screeching sound of a record coming to an abrupt halt*

WHAT?

What did he mean MY job? The housework? My job? Ok, fine, no problem, I don't mind. Then what's his job? Provide for the family? Bring home the bacon? Ok, cool, definitely no problem. Then WHY DO I HAVE A FULL TIME JOB?!?! Don't get me wrong, I'm not the type of woman cut out to be a stay-at-home wife/mom/whatever, but seriously! Let me get this straight, he expects me to do all the housework and have a job and do the grocery shopping and everything else that is supposedly 'woman's' work, AND have a full time job. While he just has a full time job. On top of that, I work in the campground store! Don't even get me started on that, because I worked four days a week a couple times, but I try to keep it at three, and now my stepmom is helping out and working one of my shifts, and my hubby made the comment about how lately I've only been working twice a week. So now, apparently, this man expects me to do all the housework, laundry, dishes, cooking, running errands, grocery shopping, work a full-time job AND work in the store four days a week. You're so lucky you can't hear the words coming out of my mouth right now.

So this little comment, though it didn't really get to me too much right then, has been digging and digging and digging at me. I was really reminded of it today when I was thinking about how messy my house is right now, and how tired I am from running around at school today (I had to help run two talent shows, which I'll talk about in a bit) and how FREAKING hot it is out (no, there's no air conditioning in the store, just stifling air being circulated by a fan which does nothing to cool it down) and how much I'd really like to have just come home and relaxed by the pool for a little bit before heading in to make a nutritious dinner and do a little cleaning up. Oh, but wait, I forgot, I have to do MY JOB, which is pretty much everything INCLUDING work in the store. Oops, my mistake, how easily I forget. Plus, I don't know if I'll have the chance to get much of a workout in tonight, since I can't close until nine! GRRRRRR!!

Ok, there, I'm done complaining. So about that talent show. As you know I work at a Jr. High. So we had two talent shows, one for seventh and one for eighth grade. I was so amazed at the talen the students really have. Most of them sang, but there were a couple dancers as well. We even had a kid come out a couple times throughout to do yo-yo tricks. And one boy played the violin! But, I spent the first four hours of school running around, making sure everything was set up, everyone was in line and ready to go on stage, and keeping the performers under control when they were waiting in the audience. Then we went around during all lunch periods to get votes from the kids on who their favorite act was so we could present trophies to the winners at the end of the day. It was stressful, but a great success. In the end, I was very proud of every student that had the balls to get on stage in front of their peers!

Anyways, last night Twig and I went for a 45 minute bike ride. It was kind of amazing how out of shape she is compared to me. She's only 13, about 2 inches taller than me and weighs 30 pounds less than me. She's really athletic and a skinny little thing (hence the name Twig), but she was about dying and way out of breath! Just goes to show that age/size/build makes NO difference on how truly fit you are! She ran in when we got home and jumped right in the shower; me? I barely broke a sweat ;)

Well I guess I've gone on for long enough today. Makes up for the lack of a post yesterday. I'm just going to sit here, sweating my nutsack off, for about five more freaking hours. Hopefully it cools off as the sun goes down. Oh, wait, that's right, sunset isn't until, like, 9:30. Awesome.

This is me, totally excited to be working in the hot, sticky store. With the one fan blowing my hair in my face, so it can stick to my sweat. Fun fun.

Anyways, happy hump day!! Only three days left of work for me (the teachers have to go on Monday for an inservice, but there'll be no kids, so it's all good!)!!!!! YAY!!!!!