figuring it all out

well, seeing as how i'm back after quite a while, and how everyone else's blogs got a facelift (you HAVE to check out Drazil's, it's SOOO cute!), i decided to change mine around as well... now, i'm certainly not as savvy as others, and therefore mine is just a standard template, but it's fitting... my old blog had a ladybug, which i love (my entire kitchen is decorated in red and black) and my favorite flower, the daisy... but i've grown up a little, ok a lot, over the past year... it's time for me to be sophisticated... and being that my blog's name is fitness JOURNAL, i figured maybe i should make it look like one as well... so here it is - tada! i'm still figuring some things out... i found a website - http://www.blogbulk.com/ - where i can customize things even further, but i'll get to it eventually... i'm a smart person, but it'll take me a few tries to get it all right and down pat before i actually apply it to this blog (i'm going to start one to practice with)...

so i'm pretty excited about all that...

also, i've added a weight tracker widget... i don't quite like it the way it is, but it's a start... i think seeing my weight and weigh-in numbers will help bring it to reality... it'll keep it in my face! sometimes i forget that i'm overweight and feel comfortable with myself and slack off in my eating and such... but, then i see myself in the mirror and it's hard to look at... my mentality is still stuck in my 135 pound body... sometimes i even will maneuver myself around and run into something with my hips, almost as if i misjudged how much room it would take me to move... silly me...

so it's all about responsibility... taking charge of myself, forcing myself to eat well and exercise, and i do believe these changes to my blog will help me with it all... now, if only i don't fade out and forget to come back!

it's been quite stressful around my household lately... so much is going on financially... then, my oldest stepdaughter is heading to college at the end of the summer... i can't believe she's gotten so old already... she was in fifth grade when my husband and i got together... she's another weight watchers success story by the way - she lost like 30 pounds between her sixth and seventh grade years... she was quite chunky there for a while... now, she's totally blossomed into a beautiful woman... she definitely still has some curves, but i'm jealous of them!! she's a picture perfect hourglass shape with a gorgeous face... and boobs! boy does she have boobs! she could give me half of those knockers and still have a nice chest! my small size b's hardly compare! please, don't think i'm a pervert or anything, you'd think the same if you saw her! :)

ANYWAYS, back to the point of it all, she's leaving soon, and even though she'll be back often to visit and everything, it's still a new step in life that my hubby hasn't had to deal with yet... and she's definitely a daddy's girl... i have a feeling he's going to take it pretty hard when she's actually gone... he's such an amazing dad... so supportive and loving... he's so close with her and i worry about them both... not to mention i'm going to miss her so much too! sometimes she's the only bit of sanity in our family that kind of holds us together... and it's so funny how she's growing up too... our family isn't one to cuss very often, but a few phrases do slip from time to time... she used the words "suck c***" the other day and my husband about fell off his chair... she walked away and he looked at me and whispered "did you hear that?"... i had to keep myself from snickering... she's just about 18 - what are we going to do, wash her mouth out with soap? and he has no room to talk, anything that doesn't work like he wants it to he calls a "c***sucker"... it's just that time: accept that she's grown up and move on...

well, there isn't anything else to post on the food/health/fitness front... luckily i've been pretty stable as far as binging is concerned... though, we are going on vacation next week, which i'm sure will reek havoc on my diet... but, if i keep myself under control before and after, i'll be fine...

i'm off to make tacos for my hungry hubby (he's threatened to get on my blog and make nasty comments if i don't wrap this up soon)... have a nice evening all!!