the damn thing runs me over! the past three days have been terrible! i'm pretty sure i have a serious disorder... i couldn't control myself as far as eating... i would eat everything in front of me and then some... let me just give one small example - yesterday morning i had about two cups of cheerios for breakfast, then my stepdaughters got up and i asked them if they wanted breakfast... they decided on pancakes, so i made them a bunch and of course there were a few left over... so guess what i ate! second breakfast! then we went out for lunch and i ate all of my food, which was a roman burger and fries... at dinner i ate all of my spaghetti and then the rest of my husbands! oh - by the way - both lunch and dinner were restaurant meals... lovely! by the time we got back, i ate a huge piece of cake for a nighttime snack...
that was just sunday too... friday and saturday were even worse... we went to a reverse raffle saturday night and i had two desserts and six drinks on top of my massively overflowing dinner plate...
i decided i'm bulimic, just without the purging... just binging and binging and binging... friday i literally ate so much my stomach hurt for hours after... i don't know what to do with myself after a weekend like that... i realize, mentally, that it is my own fault, and that i should be able to control myself... but the reality of how many calories i've consumed totally depresses me... how could i possibly fall off the wagon that bad? i was doing so well with my eating and staying in points and everything... i think the whole thing started with wednesday night when i realized how many points my dinner at perkins costed me... and then it was just downhill since... and the thing that really sucks, is i gave up sweets for lent... yeah, that didn't work out too well... i just can't believe i let myself, and God, down that much... it's really depressing... this week i'm going to have to spend the entire time trying to make up for what i've ruined in just three days...
i just have to say so much for my journey... so much for keeping myself under control... so much for lent and so much for my one pound loss... so much for going back on weight watchers... i just don't know what to do, other than dredge on, in attempt to make up for all that i've lost...
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Just put it all behind you and start focusing on this week. Don't even think about last week. Don't think to your self that you need to eat less or what ever to make up for last week just focus on eating right and sticking to your weight watchers and lent promises that you made to your self!!! You will never get anywhere if you dwell on the past, even if the past was just yesterday. Just look forward, and I know you can do it!!
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