Monday, April 26, 2010

1.5...

... but wish it were 2! i know, i should be happy... it's just, usually when you first start, you see huge numbers on the scale the first few weeks... then it dwindles... well if this dwindles, i'm screwed! this is the number i got after my first week back on weight watchers... i LOVE the program... and i know i could have done much better, so there's always this week...

for example, i don't know if you read friday's post, but i was pretty close to being over points and blah blah blah and if i had only eaten just so much it wouldn't be so bad... yeah? well i used ALL of my flex points that night... yep, all... probably plus some, cuz i didn't even keep track after a while... here's what i had: strawberry shortcake, three cookies, a brownie, a huge amount of fruit, a donut, two pasta dinners, who knows how much granola... all in one day... i stopped counting at 47 points... just couldn't do it anymore... even though i know i should have...

so that really didn't leave me with much as far as points for saturday, when my mom and stepdad came up and we went to benihana's... but, i did earn 52 activity points last week for all the biking i did, so that came in handy... and then last night i used some too...

so needless to say, a 1.5 loss is probably great for all i ate... but i still sit back and kick myself for all i did eat and think, ok, this week will be better... i just wish this all didn't have to be such a struggle!! it's driving me crazy and making me depressed, when i know it shouldn't be... two years ago i lost a ton of weight without even trying... i wasn't on a diet or anything... it just fell off... and now that i'm trying to do so, nadda... it's soooo hard!

i don't know, maybe i just need to let myself go...

3 comments:

skinnysushi.com said...

First off, any loss is great. Secondly, I don't always see big numbers right away. Give it another week or two for your body to adjust, and you might start seeing bigger losses. And I know you don't want to hear this because I hate it too, but 1-2 pounds per week is a GOOD and HEALTHY rate of loss.

Anonymous said...

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